Hal yang menakutkan untuk menjadi apa adanya ialah perasaan bahwa anda telah memalsukannya selama ini. Jika ada orang yang mampu menghadapinya, orang itu adalah anda. Anda dapat melihat tekanan yang diberikan lingkungan kepada setiap kita untuk menjadi orang munafik. Dan anda sendiri harus membuat keputusan, untuk hidup menjadi diri sendiri atau menjadi diri yang orang lain katakan tentang anda.

Our publishing team were just finished with the magazine design last tuesday. This is our first publication, to celebrate the 4th anniversary of one of church branches. The deadline supposed to be on last Friday, but we couldn't make it. It was a war of blood n sweat. Last weekend we slept only for 2 hours a day. I took a day off, hoping I could finish the work. but it had not finished yet. Some of our crews had gone to KL and Singapore earlier to join City Harvest's Emerge. At the end left only 3 of us fighting the battle. We worked till late nite in church office then continued doing it till morning in a fren's house. Honestly, i was so stressed out, but I tried to stay calm, thinking to myself that my complain n tear wont make my work get done. Mom were angry with me for coming back home in the 'morning' almost everyday. but finally she could understand. During this time, I have realized and learned so many things as well. As david told the Lord: ' the zeal for Your house consumes me' became real to me. There is a joy of doing this, in spite of the amount of work we need to do. An irreplaceable joy that He has given to me knowing that I am doing all this for my Master. His love has really consumes all of me, that makes me love doing things for Him. :)

I've also learned that simple act of kindness reveals God's love to others.
While we were busy doing the work, some of them just being there for us, and help us to type or providing anything that we need. Some were making coffee and preparing food. Some were massaging us to make us feel relax. Some bought us some vitamins and nutrition to keep us stay fit. Some were willing to fetch all of us and drive us back event it was 4 am! Some were just playing guitar and creating an atmosphere of worship. Some were just being crazy so we wont feel stress. Some were covering us with prayer. Some stayed late with us till morning. Some bought sushi for us. THANK YOU, FRIENDS!
It is such a beauty scene that I've seen, where His children live together in harmony. I thank God for this wonderful people and family i had in Him.